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O, alcohol. May 5, 2013

I don’t have a drinking problem, though when you read this you will think that I do.

I like writing when the drunk opportunistic arises, though I feel bad that it’s the second time in a week. But anyways, I have a few friends over, one of them a male, the other a female. The female I have had a crush 0ne for the longest time. The male is different, obviously. I’m drunk, but checking my spelling quite closely, and the only friend staying over is the guy. No big, he’s like my brother, I love him to death.

Fuck, this is taking too long. I can’t seem to type without proper grammar and shit. Whatever. I will try to let it go. Don’t think I am. UGH. FINE. I am drunk with my best friend and mom. SO EFFING SUE ME. Don’t care. ANYWAYS. My best friend is a guy. I think if I wasn’t gay then I’d be with him. That’s a weird thing to say. He’s just a cool guy. ANYWAY FUCKING WAYS. I’m talking to this girl. She seems legit. Ish. I don’t know how old she is. But I’m ready to be done with all these games and shit.

I want someone. I wants someone who understands me and loves me. I wants someone who gets why I love my family and why I care so much.

I suppose doing this blog doesn’t help…Finn, what do you think? I know this is the second drunk post I’ve made. Why don’t I fly across the pond and live with you? Maybe life would be less complicated. Perhaps I will fly across the pond anyways. You’re my favorite on this blog. But I digress. I hope my friends undersrtand me. I hope they get my I am frustrated. I hope they understand why I can’t seem to share my feelings. Oh well. I give up. I don’t understad what love means right now. I hate feelign this way.

Anywho,, mom’s home from her walk, shoul probably get off here. Hope al is well! Love you all.

 

xoxoxo

Ely.

 

Day 6 of juicing April 21, 2013

Weight as of Day One (April 15th): 341.8 lbs

Weight as of today: 331.5 lbs

Weight lost: 10.3 lbs

Total weight lost since March 25th: 23.5 lbs

Tomorrow at 1pm marks seven full days since I have eaten anything, and since I have began juicing. For the life of me, I really can’t believe I’ve done it. I can’t believe that I’ve gone this long, and resisted all the temptations that have been around me. This weekend has been the absolute hardest part, and I’ll explain why…

Yesterday my mom wanted to go to a plant nursery and produce stand that she passes every day on her way to work. My parents, brother, and I went and enjoyed the stand very much – it had great prices and my mom found some plants she had been looking for. It was getting towards dinner time, and I had juiced something quickly before we left, but it wasn’t close to what I normally juice. My family was hungry but didn’t want to eat anything because of me. I told them not to worry about it – I can handle them eating in front of me. Well, they chose pho, which happens to be one of my favorite foods. No matter…I figured I would just order some tea and be alright.

As soon as we walked in, I knew I was in for a struggle. It smelled amazing in there! When they ordered, I asked for tea and lime for my water. Their food came, and my stomach began to rumble. About ten minutes passed, and I was doing alright. I watched the tv hanging on the wall and tried to ignore the smells around me. A waiter came by to fill my water and asked if they had forgotten my order. I smiled and said no, but thank you. Another waiter came by and nearly gave me a plate meant for another table. It became a little harder to ignore everything, but I continued to drink my water and focus on the tv screen. Eventually everyone was finished, and I all but ran out of the restaurant. Phew! It was over!

I woke up this morning ready to just sit on the couch all day and totally relax. My body woke itself up around 7:30am, which is a miracle because normally on the weekends I sleep until 9 or 10am. I felt rested, and that made me happy. Getting on the scale of course was even better. The day was great until my mom decided that she was going to make stuffed peppers for dinner. Once again, this was one of my favorite foods. I LOVE stuffed peppers. My mom didn’t realize this and felt kind of bad, but of course she wasn’t going to change plans for the rest of the family. I don’t blame her, but as soon as she started cooking, my stomach flipped. I felt a little nauseous, but it passed after some cucumber and lemon juice. When it was time for dinner, I felt silly by the fact that I was longing for a stuffed pepper. I was so close to practically mauling one in order to calm myself down. But again, I refrained. Another amazing accomplishment.

So this weekend was very difficult. It took a lot of patience and self control and for that, I’m very proud of myself. My mom even made a comment to how well she thinks I’m doing. This is honestly and truly the first time I have firmly stuck with a decision and choice like this. This was a big decision that I made rather quickly, and there have been MANY times over the course of the past week when I told myself it was alright to give in. Thankfully, there is a tiny, small voice in my head that just keeps whispering “Keep going! You will be so proud when you are through!” I’m not through yet, but I am alright glowing with pride that I’ve made it this far.

I’m in the last half of this incredible goal, and I can’t wait to write when I’m finished. I’ll definitely be back before then with more progress though 🙂

Cheers, and I’ll be back soon,

Ely.

 

Day 2: Well, would you look at that… April 17, 2013

Weight as of Monday: 341.8 lbs

Weight as of this morning: 338.6 lbs

Total lost: 3.2 lbs

Total lost since March 25th: 16.4lbs

Whoa! Talk about detoxing…What a crazy amount of weight lost already! And it’s only the second day!

I’m feeling pretty good, except for feeling a bit nauseous this morning. I haven’t finished my breakfast juice because frankly, I’m not all that hungry. I’ll probably just sip on it for a while. I can feel that I’m still cleaning out old waste, and I think that’s what is making me not feel the best. I do have a headache, most likely from my caffeine withdraws, but I figure they will pass soon.

Fun fact about why you get headaches when you quit drinking caffeine…Caffeine helps create more spinal fluid that goes into the spinal column, of course protecting your spinal cord. When you stop drinking caffeine, you’re making less spinal fluid, and sending a “danger” signal to your brain because it now thinks you’re not going to have enough to protect everything. The headaches wear off when your brain realizes that your spinal cord is not in any danger.

Crazy stuff, right? I learned that once when I had to have a lumbar puncture, or “spinal tap”. They made me drink lots of caffeine to avoid a “spinal headache” due to lack of spinal fluid. Terrible thing is, I ended up getting the spinal headache anyways. Literally the WORST pain I have ever experienced in my life…

Anyways, I woke up with more energy this morning. I was able to get through my morning walk at a really brisk pace, and I think I chatted my stepdad’s ear off about juicing and how great I was feeling. He was really surprised about my 3lb weight loss already, and I have to admit, I was surprised too. I figured okay…maybe a pound, MAYBE two…but three? Awesome! Oh, and when I walked down my stairs this morning, I had absolutely no joint pain. Usually I practically limp down the stairs, but my knees and ankles felt great. How awesome is that??

Today I juiced cucumber, carrots, spinach, green apple, pear, lemon, grapefruit, and ginger for my breakfast juice. It tastes wonderful (just like grapefruit!) and I think the ginger is really the key ingredient. It’s so good for you! My lunch juice is lettuce, cucumber, lime, green apple, spinach, celery, carrots, and of course more ginger. I’ll have to go back to the produce stand tonight for more veggies…I’m starting to run out!

It’s already getting easier to ignore the small hunger pangs, and I don’t even have the desire to eat anything. I think it’s a “mind over matter” thing, and it definitely helps  to already be seeing results and feeling better. I’m still just taking everything one day/meal/thought at a time. I know that if I continue like this, I’ll be able to make it for however many days I feel I can get through!

Well, I’ll post more tonight about how I’m doing…here’s to a great day!

Cheers,

Ely.

 

New iPod, and starting Weight Watchers tomorrow. March 20, 2013

Yesterday I won a 30GB 5th Gen. iPod Classic on eBay for such a good price. I’m thinking I’ll be taking a lot more walks around the block now that I have portable music. I can’t wait for it to arrive!

Tomorrow, I will be starting Weight Watchers Online. I’m actually pretty excited; I feel like it’s going to be good this time around. I’m pretty ready to get serious about this whole thing again. It’s been depressing to think of all the things I have struggled with and can’t do anymore because of the amount of weight I’ve gained. I hate being out of breath after climbing just one flight of stairs, or having to struggle with certain car seatbelts because they’re just barely big enough…it’s incredibly upsetting, but it’s all my fault. I’m ready to fix this.

I have put a motivation board up in my room to keep me going even when times get a little tough. I have my goal weight written on it, and I have taped a picture of a beautiful dress that I want when I reach my goal. It also has a few motivational sayings to help remind me to stay on track. I’ll keep adding to it as I go!

That’s really all I have for the night…I’ll keep you posted 🙂

(PS – I still haven’t gone on Facebook since I first started posting about my weight loss…still need to lose 100lbs to go on there! I haven’t given that part up 🙂 )

 

Week Four of Weight Watchers… October 14, 2012

I was quite depressed at my last weight in on the October 6th. I was really sick (terrible flu! GET YOUR FLU SHOTS!!!) and Mother Nature had paid me an uninvited visit. I was bloated and felt gross, and low and behold, I had gained 3lbs. I wanted to cry; I was scared that it was something I was doing wrong. I didn’t want to go to the meeting, but I stayed and celebrated that my friend had lost 5% already. I sat there wanting to disappear.

I’ll be honest, I tried to come up with excuses for not going on Saturday. I’m lucky that I am doing this with my best friend, because not going was simply not an option for her. I very reluctantly got on the scale…

…and I had lost 4.6lbs.

I was confused for a moment…I asked the receptionist “Is that 4.6lbs total, or for the week?”

She smiled, as if she had been asked that hundreds of times, and said “No, hun…that is just this week! You’re 9lbs down total!”

Weight Watchers lady, you completely made my day! Four weeks, and I am down 9lbs! My brother had said that it doesn’t sound like much, but at the same time, I’ve been told my face looks thinner, and I feel like it is actual FAT, and not just water. I will admit, the past two weeks have been dicey, and I haven’t tracked EVERYTHING that I have been eating, and that’s bad. I need to make sure to keep tracking, BUT, I feel like this is working great for me!

Tomorrow is going to be a true test, though…I am baking my mom a cake tomorrow. Spice cake with a spiced frosting, and I am baking it by myself. No one around. No one to see the spoonful of frosting here, or the taste test there. No one but me. But, what I eat in private shows up in public, right?

I am quite excited for my baking tomorrow, though. I don’t believe I have ever mentioned it, but I absolutely love baking. Eventually, I would love to open my own bakery, and make wedding cakes. I haven’t gone to school for it yet, but I plan to in the next year or so. I love decorating and watching people smile when they see what I have made for them. It’s such an indescribable feeling.

So, for this skeptic, WW has been great for me thus far. I’m learning so much about myself, and they are things that I can take with me through my entire life. It’s not a diet, it is a true lifestyle change. I’m changing eating habits, and learning from my body when I am and am not hungry. It’s fantastic, and I am happy that I am 8lbs away from losing 5% already. I’m hoping to achieve that goal in three weeks.

Well, that’s about all I have for tonight. I might hop on here tomorrow and share pictures of my cake creation, assuming it turns out pretty and edible.

Hope you have a wonderful night 🙂

Xoxo Elysia

PS — Seahawks beat the Patriots today!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Oh, Mondays. August 28, 2012

Filed under: Autumn,Life,Monday,Seasons,Uncategorized — lostinalife @ 4:38 am
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It was a beautiful, sunny Monday morning here near the Cascades; I started out my day waking up my youngest brother (who is 16 years old) per his request because he wanted to have a cup of tea with me before I went off to work. We sound like we should be from England, huh? But we’re just like that…he’s one of my closest friends, and I’m a lucky older sister to have him. So I got him up around 6am, got ready, and had a delicious cup of English Breakfast tea.

It was a wonderful start to a typically dreaded morning. I don’t know about you, but it’s so much harder to wake up Monday morning than any other day of the week. How to I make that a little better? Starting my morning off with something I enjoy, and something that is typically out of the ordinary. Gave my day a good kick in the pants – and guess what? I had a great rest of the day!

Work wasn’t too bad today; a little on the busy side, but not terrible. Working in a call center, sometimes to be busy is nice as it makes the day go so much faster. Funny, isn’t it? How we want the day to go so much faster at work, then beg for them to slow down any other day?

Here’s your homework for tomorrow…do something out of the norm – take a moment for tea, travel a different way to work, play some music that you haven’t heard in a while…but do something different that you will enjoy, and let me know how it changes your mood for the rest of the day. I recommend doing it before your regular activities – I recommend before work, school, etc. Hold on to the feeling of relaxation or happiness as much as you can for the day. Comment and let me know how it went!

My Monday was one of the better ones I have had in a while, and I’m hoping the rest of the week is the same. To all of you, have a beautiful evening, and an even brighter tomorrow.

Elysia

 

Longing for Autumn August 27, 2012

Filed under: Autumn,Football,Seasons — lostinalife @ 4:54 am
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I can’t help it; I want it to be fall so badly right now.

Thankfully, we’re not too far away. Here in the Pacific Northwest fall tends to show up around mid-September or perhaps slightly earlier. As a pale redhead, summer and I don’t mix well – at all. There are so many reasons as to why I long for fall that some of them I can hardly describe. The feelings, the atmosphere…so very beautiful.

I love pumpkin spice lattes, cold crisp air that requires a sweater, and the sun setting sooner in the evening. I love going to the pumpkin patches and trying to carve patterns that are way too difficult for my skills. There have been many times when I’ve been so excited to do a specific pattern, then half way into it I curse under my breath, asking whatever deity that will listen why they allowed me to choose this…Somehow, though, they always turn out.

I also love football games on Sundays. Every Sunday, I go see my dad, we have snacks, and we watch the Seahawks game together. It’s filled with laughter, and the occasional moment of screaming at the television at an exciting play. Usually afterwards we have some political discussion, or talk about history, or even just talk about work. As silly as it sounds, I don’t see my dad much outside of football season; everything else just seems so busy and there’s rarely time. Football Sundays usually contain so many great memories. September 9th can’t possible come soon enough – first game of the season!

Fall brings me a peace that I can’t seem to explain correctly. Nothing in life changes; I still have to pay my bills, go to work, watch the news…But the feeling is different. There is a different glow to the world with all the brightly colored leaves that you just don’t get any other time of year. There is an unhurried feeling driving into work while the sun is rising and you are sipping on your coffee or tea. The feeling is almost magical.

Autumn can’t possibly come soon enough for me this year. ❤

-Elysia

 

 
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