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O, alcohol. May 5, 2013

I don’t have a drinking problem, though when you read this you will think that I do.

I like writing when the drunk opportunistic arises, though I feel bad that it’s the second time in a week. But anyways, I have a few friends over, one of them a male, the other a female. The female I have had a crush 0ne for the longest time. The male is different, obviously. I’m drunk, but checking my spelling quite closely, and the only friend staying over is the guy. No big, he’s like my brother, I love him to death.

Fuck, this is taking too long. I can’t seem to type without proper grammar and shit. Whatever. I will try to let it go. Don’t think I am. UGH. FINE. I am drunk with my best friend and mom. SO EFFING SUE ME. Don’t care. ANYWAYS. My best friend is a guy. I think if I wasn’t gay then I’d be with him. That’s a weird thing to say. He’s just a cool guy. ANYWAY FUCKING WAYS. I’m talking to this girl. She seems legit. Ish. I don’t know how old she is. But I’m ready to be done with all these games and shit.

I want someone. I wants someone who understands me and loves me. I wants someone who gets why I love my family and why I care so much.

I suppose doing this blog doesn’t help…Finn, what do you think? I know this is the second drunk post I’ve made. Why don’t I fly across the pond and live with you? Maybe life would be less complicated. Perhaps I will fly across the pond anyways. You’re my favorite on this blog. But I digress. I hope my friends undersrtand me. I hope they get my I am frustrated. I hope they understand why I can’t seem to share my feelings. Oh well. I give up. I don’t understad what love means right now. I hate feelign this way.

Anywho,, mom’s home from her walk, shoul probably get off here. Hope al is well! Love you all.

 

xoxoxo

Ely.

 

Another weigh in! Doing great! April 9, 2013

Starting weight: 355lbs

Last week’s weight: 342.6lbs

Today’s weight: 341.8lbs

Total lost: 13.2lbs!

Yay! I’m quite excited at my weigh in. I know it’s less than a full pound, but any loss is good loss! Getting closer and closer to my goals! Not to mention I had completely blown my points Friday night when we went out. I would have been happy losing just an ounce, to be honest.

I had a really good birthday yesterday, and got some lovely gifts. Most notably of course are the tickets to see/meet Jillian Michaels tomorrow evening in Seattle. I’m still so freaking excited that I can hardly contain myself. I don’t know how I will get through today and tomorrow! My mom also got me a Weight Watchers cookbook. It has some really great looking recipes that I can’t wait to try! It will be nice to not eat the same things over and over again – adding a little variety will be awesome.

Mom and I are still getting up in the mornings and walking. We calculated that we walk approximately a half mile in about 10 – 11 minutes each morning, and we are thinking of making it a full mile in the next few days. Unfortunately, due to events going on this week, I won’t really be able to get a workout in until Thursday. My workout days will be Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday. Gotta make sure to keep moving!

I’m looking forward to asking Jillian some questions tomorrow. What’s the best exercise to start with for someone as big as I am? What exercises can I do to help burn fat quickly? Will you marry me? Oh…wait….probably shouldn’t ask that last one. That could get awkward. Regardless, the offer still stands. But what other things can should I ask? Do any of YOU have any questions you want me to get answers to?

Well, I’m happy to still be doing well and to be going on the right track. Can’t wait for tomorrow! Until then…

Cheers,

Ely.

 

And the good feeling continues! April 3, 2013

I just got done with my second workout this week. The Biggest Loser Bootcamp really whipped my ass today. I wasn’t too sore after the workout yesterday, or when I woke up this morning – I am really sore (but incredibly relaxed) this time around, and I have a feeling it will be tough to walk it out tomorrow morning. My arms feel good, my core is tightening up, and I have the greatest post-workout high ever! THANK YOU ENDORPHINS!

I feel like I was able to try a little harder today than I was yesterday – I think I got a better stretch and was able to do more squats/hold them longer. I feel my muscles quivering a bit! Throughout the DVD I was kept thinking “Pain is temporary – regret will last me forever”. It’s probably my greatest motivation right now. If I don’t do it, nothing will ever change, and that won’t work for me either. All I can do is keep pushing harder and harder! I feel like I’ve totally got this!

Thank you tons everyone for being incredibly supportive! You guys totally rock and are making it so much easier for me to keep my motivation! ❤

Cheers,

Ely

PS – Only 4 days until my birthday!!!

 

I’m going to meet Jillian Michaels!!!! April 2, 2013

I was at work today minding my own business when my mom texted me that Jillian Michaels will be in town next Wednesday, April 10th. Knowing that she’s my BIGGEST FITNESS IDOL EVER, my mom thought I might want to go. Tickets were reasonable, so I figured, sure! I’ll buy them when I get home.

About 30 minutes later, my mom sent me a text that said “2 VIP tickets to see Jillian Michaels that include best seats in the house, gift, and Q&A after the show…$$$. Happiest Birthday ever, priceless! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SIS!”

For a split second, I’m pretty sure I had a mild cardiac event. I stopped breathing, and I couldn’t feel my heart beat. I got lightheaded and nearly passed out. Once I snapped back into consciousness, I nearly squealed with this incredible rush of pure joy, happiness, and excitement. I am going to meet the biggest weight loss inspiration in my life, and it’s only a week away! I had no words to thank my mother…It is seriously the best gift I’ve ever received! I’m so excited…I can’t wait. I feel like it’s going to severely change my life. It’s definitely keeping my motivation in tact!

In the mean time while I wait patient for the 10th to get here, today I did a wonderful workout courtesy of the Biggest Loser Bootcamp dvd I own. It’s one of my favorite workouts, and it is definitely time to wipe the dust off of it. The first week, it’s a 30 minute workout 4 or 5 times a week. I just finished it about 15 minutes ago, and I’m actually pleasantly surprised that I didn’t struggle too much with it. I feel fantastic, and I definitely broke a good sweat. I’ll be doing it again tomorrow evening! Today, I’ve definitely earned my shower 🙂

I’ve never felt more confident than I do right now. I’ve eaten amazingly today, I walked for 15 minutes again with my mom this morning, and I did that workout…More so I couldn’t be more proud. I’m going strong with no complaints, only excitement. I’ve never worked this hard, and I’ve never looked more forward to a workout in my life. I absolutely can’t wait to do it all over again!

What an improvement from the attitude I had even two weeks ago. I definitely see myself getting in shape this time. It will take a while, but it is going to be the best thing I have ever done in my life. I’m so ready.

Cheers to an amazing day, and an even better birthday gift!

Ely.

 

Week Four of Weight Watchers… October 14, 2012

I was quite depressed at my last weight in on the October 6th. I was really sick (terrible flu! GET YOUR FLU SHOTS!!!) and Mother Nature had paid me an uninvited visit. I was bloated and felt gross, and low and behold, I had gained 3lbs. I wanted to cry; I was scared that it was something I was doing wrong. I didn’t want to go to the meeting, but I stayed and celebrated that my friend had lost 5% already. I sat there wanting to disappear.

I’ll be honest, I tried to come up with excuses for not going on Saturday. I’m lucky that I am doing this with my best friend, because not going was simply not an option for her. I very reluctantly got on the scale…

…and I had lost 4.6lbs.

I was confused for a moment…I asked the receptionist “Is that 4.6lbs total, or for the week?”

She smiled, as if she had been asked that hundreds of times, and said “No, hun…that is just this week! You’re 9lbs down total!”

Weight Watchers lady, you completely made my day! Four weeks, and I am down 9lbs! My brother had said that it doesn’t sound like much, but at the same time, I’ve been told my face looks thinner, and I feel like it is actual FAT, and not just water. I will admit, the past two weeks have been dicey, and I haven’t tracked EVERYTHING that I have been eating, and that’s bad. I need to make sure to keep tracking, BUT, I feel like this is working great for me!

Tomorrow is going to be a true test, though…I am baking my mom a cake tomorrow. Spice cake with a spiced frosting, and I am baking it by myself. No one around. No one to see the spoonful of frosting here, or the taste test there. No one but me. But, what I eat in private shows up in public, right?

I am quite excited for my baking tomorrow, though. I don’t believe I have ever mentioned it, but I absolutely love baking. Eventually, I would love to open my own bakery, and make wedding cakes. I haven’t gone to school for it yet, but I plan to in the next year or so. I love decorating and watching people smile when they see what I have made for them. It’s such an indescribable feeling.

So, for this skeptic, WW has been great for me thus far. I’m learning so much about myself, and they are things that I can take with me through my entire life. It’s not a diet, it is a true lifestyle change. I’m changing eating habits, and learning from my body when I am and am not hungry. It’s fantastic, and I am happy that I am 8lbs away from losing 5% already. I’m hoping to achieve that goal in three weeks.

Well, that’s about all I have for tonight. I might hop on here tomorrow and share pictures of my cake creation, assuming it turns out pretty and edible.

Hope you have a wonderful night 🙂

Xoxo Elysia

PS — Seahawks beat the Patriots today!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 
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