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O, alcohol. May 5, 2013

I don’t have a drinking problem, though when you read this you will think that I do.

I like writing when the drunk opportunistic arises, though I feel bad that it’s the second time in a week. But anyways, I have a few friends over, one of them a male, the other a female. The female I have had a crush 0ne for the longest time. The male is different, obviously. I’m drunk, but checking my spelling quite closely, and the only friend staying over is the guy. No big, he’s like my brother, I love him to death.

Fuck, this is taking too long. I can’t seem to type without proper grammar and shit. Whatever. I will try to let it go. Don’t think I am. UGH. FINE. I am drunk with my best friend and mom. SO EFFING SUE ME. Don’t care. ANYWAYS. My best friend is a guy. I think if I wasn’t gay then I’d be with him. That’s a weird thing to say. He’s just a cool guy. ANYWAY FUCKING WAYS. I’m talking to this girl. She seems legit. Ish. I don’t know how old she is. But I’m ready to be done with all these games and shit.

I want someone. I wants someone who understands me and loves me. I wants someone who gets why I love my family and why I care so much.

I suppose doing this blog doesn’t help…Finn, what do you think? I know this is the second drunk post I’ve made. Why don’t I fly across the pond and live with you? Maybe life would be less complicated. Perhaps I will fly across the pond anyways. You’re my favorite on this blog. But I digress. I hope my friends undersrtand me. I hope they get my I am frustrated. I hope they understand why I can’t seem to share my feelings. Oh well. I give up. I don’t understad what love means right now. I hate feelign this way.

Anywho,, mom’s home from her walk, shoul probably get off here. Hope al is well! Love you all.

 

xoxoxo

Ely.

 

Weekends will be the death of me, but onto tomorrow. February 3, 2013

I got a special surprise yesterday when my mom decided we were going to go drive to the ocean and spend the night; something my family loves doing. We piled into the truck early yesterday, and had a BEAUTIFUL day on the beach! We got a great hotel room, and it was a much needed mini-vacation.

Unfortunately, I failed to stick to my paleo diet, and I’m really paying for it right now. My stomach is beyond messed up, and I feel absolutely awful. I have a headache, I am bloated, and generally feel sick. Lesson learned.

Starting tomorrow, I’ll be doing the Whole30 program, and I’m pretty excited. I look forward to not feeling like death when I eat. I am incredibly nervous, though. I have a baby shower to go to next weekend, and I have no idea how that is going to work out. I guess I will just have to bring my own food in a small cooler or something. I will have to plan it this week. I don’t want to be caught off guard!

While I was at the ocean, I went into a tea shop and bought dandelion tea – I’m a huge tea fanatic, and I’m very excited for it. I tried it as soon as we got home, and it was fabulous! I think it will help me get through the first week.

Doing the Whole30 changes my weighing in plans a little bit – I was going to weigh in on February 28th, but now I will not weigh in until the 30 days are up. Part of the program is to stay away from measurements and the scale. This may very well be the hardest part for me. Whenever I’m trying to lose weight, I’m usually on the scale constantly. It’s almost a mental illness for me, as I constantly feel I have to see how I’m doing. It’s also the biggest cause for losing my motivation. I’m not sure if I’m relieved or not that I have to give it up. We’ll just go with relieved.

The next 30 days are going to be amazing, hard, scary, fabulous, and life changing. There are a lot of testimonials out there for how wonderful people feel after their 30 days are up. I know that my results are all based on my own decisions and sticking to it; remembering that keeps my motivation alive.

Here’s to being healthier, and taking control of you body!

Cheers,

Elysia

 

Week Four of Weight Watchers… October 14, 2012

I was quite depressed at my last weight in on the October 6th. I was really sick (terrible flu! GET YOUR FLU SHOTS!!!) and Mother Nature had paid me an uninvited visit. I was bloated and felt gross, and low and behold, I had gained 3lbs. I wanted to cry; I was scared that it was something I was doing wrong. I didn’t want to go to the meeting, but I stayed and celebrated that my friend had lost 5% already. I sat there wanting to disappear.

I’ll be honest, I tried to come up with excuses for not going on Saturday. I’m lucky that I am doing this with my best friend, because not going was simply not an option for her. I very reluctantly got on the scale…

…and I had lost 4.6lbs.

I was confused for a moment…I asked the receptionist “Is that 4.6lbs total, or for the week?”

She smiled, as if she had been asked that hundreds of times, and said “No, hun…that is just this week! You’re 9lbs down total!”

Weight Watchers lady, you completely made my day! Four weeks, and I am down 9lbs! My brother had said that it doesn’t sound like much, but at the same time, I’ve been told my face looks thinner, and I feel like it is actual FAT, and not just water. I will admit, the past two weeks have been dicey, and I haven’t tracked EVERYTHING that I have been eating, and that’s bad. I need to make sure to keep tracking, BUT, I feel like this is working great for me!

Tomorrow is going to be a true test, though…I am baking my mom a cake tomorrow. Spice cake with a spiced frosting, and I am baking it by myself. No one around. No one to see the spoonful of frosting here, or the taste test there. No one but me. But, what I eat in private shows up in public, right?

I am quite excited for my baking tomorrow, though. I don’t believe I have ever mentioned it, but I absolutely love baking. Eventually, I would love to open my own bakery, and make wedding cakes. I haven’t gone to school for it yet, but I plan to in the next year or so. I love decorating and watching people smile when they see what I have made for them. It’s such an indescribable feeling.

So, for this skeptic, WW has been great for me thus far. I’m learning so much about myself, and they are things that I can take with me through my entire life. It’s not a diet, it is a true lifestyle change. I’m changing eating habits, and learning from my body when I am and am not hungry. It’s fantastic, and I am happy that I am 8lbs away from losing 5% already. I’m hoping to achieve that goal in three weeks.

Well, that’s about all I have for tonight. I might hop on here tomorrow and share pictures of my cake creation, assuming it turns out pretty and edible.

Hope you have a wonderful night 🙂

Xoxo Elysia

PS — Seahawks beat the Patriots today!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Longing for Autumn August 27, 2012

Filed under: Autumn,Football,Seasons — lostinalife @ 4:54 am
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I can’t help it; I want it to be fall so badly right now.

Thankfully, we’re not too far away. Here in the Pacific Northwest fall tends to show up around mid-September or perhaps slightly earlier. As a pale redhead, summer and I don’t mix well – at all. There are so many reasons as to why I long for fall that some of them I can hardly describe. The feelings, the atmosphere…so very beautiful.

I love pumpkin spice lattes, cold crisp air that requires a sweater, and the sun setting sooner in the evening. I love going to the pumpkin patches and trying to carve patterns that are way too difficult for my skills. There have been many times when I’ve been so excited to do a specific pattern, then half way into it I curse under my breath, asking whatever deity that will listen why they allowed me to choose this…Somehow, though, they always turn out.

I also love football games on Sundays. Every Sunday, I go see my dad, we have snacks, and we watch the Seahawks game together. It’s filled with laughter, and the occasional moment of screaming at the television at an exciting play. Usually afterwards we have some political discussion, or talk about history, or even just talk about work. As silly as it sounds, I don’t see my dad much outside of football season; everything else just seems so busy and there’s rarely time. Football Sundays usually contain so many great memories. September 9th can’t possible come soon enough – first game of the season!

Fall brings me a peace that I can’t seem to explain correctly. Nothing in life changes; I still have to pay my bills, go to work, watch the news…But the feeling is different. There is a different glow to the world with all the brightly colored leaves that you just don’t get any other time of year. There is an unhurried feeling driving into work while the sun is rising and you are sipping on your coffee or tea. The feeling is almost magical.

Autumn can’t possibly come soon enough for me this year. ❤

-Elysia

 

 
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